“What you looking for? What you headed towards?
What’s your name worth when they mention yours?
When you leave here, are you stepping forward?
Can you remember your intention when they question yours?
They’re gonna question yours, they’re gonna question yours
I’ve been at rock bottom and I’m headed North
If you don’t love yourself, what’s the respect for?
If you don’t love life, the check won’t correct yours
Fill my lungs up, pour my heart out, peel my bones away
Grab my window, shed my shadow, excavate my pain
And I found peace, and I found peace
And I found peace” Excavate- Macklemore
Everyone has a purpose, a calling, and talents to use and develop throughout life. What are you doing with yours?
Whether we have found a partner, have children, or own a home, . . . the world’s measures of success . . . we know our inner worth. I got married at 30 and spent my twenties with family asking, “When are you going to get married?” I had a college friend who used to tell her mom, “I don’t play the harmonica but you don’t ask me when I’m going to start playing.”
I have found a peace in being childfree. I always wanted children and still grieve for the loss of my foster children. I always will- they are woven into the fabric of my heart. But, I live a full life. A life I love. A life that is my own choices and is filled with experiences, friends, and family.
The lyrics above state that if you don’t love your life, your income can’t correct the emptiness. Rise above the expectations people put on you and make choices to love yourself. To build a life that you love. My life doesn’t have to be big and glamorous. I love walking the woods with a running group from my church. I love watching the sunrise in gorgeous sherbet pinks and oranges. The little things bouy my spirit and get me through the rough patches and bumps in the road.
Fill up your lungs in a few deep breaths. If you don’t love your life, make a conscious choice to make one decision toward a new chapter. Shed your shadow, find peace.